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ahhhh kenapa aku je yang diuji!

Hmmm,dah lama rasanya tak tulis personal post
Tapi hari ni dapat feeling nak tulis

Last 2 weeks,aku merasakan diri aku selalu sangat diuji.
Tak kiralah dari segi apa
Kawan,duit,pelajaran
Sampai satu tahap aku hari-hari menangis
Tak kiralah kat mana
Atas motor,dalam toilet,dekat bilik

Aaaaaaaaaaahhh sampai aku tertanya,apa hikmahnya ujian ni dan kenapanaku yang diuji!

Pada masa kejadian..Bila badan penat,otak serabut mulalah mulut mengarut.

Mak perasan aku berubah,aku jadi tak sabar dan mudah marah

"Kenapa?"

"Orang penat lah mak,ain penat fikir duit belajar lagi"

"Dulu kalau kalau In hadapi benda yang sama macam sekarang,In tak macamni pun"

"Eh ye ke?"

"In,mungkin Allah bagi ujian ni nak bagi In ingat kat dia, dan mungkin ada benda yang In selalu buat dulu tapi In dah lamaaaaaaaaaa tinggalkan"

Gulp.Ok check diri.

Solat 5 waktu,Alhamdulillah cukup.
Baca Quran,InsyaAllah hari2



Tapiiiiiiii,solat dengan mengaji je ke aku buat dulu?

Yes,diri yang diberi nama Nurain Fadzillah ini dah lama tinggalkan amalan yang dua ni.Dah lamaaaaa sangat.Sibukkan hal dunia,akhirat aku tak jaga.Dush!

Solat dhuha dan puasa sunat.

Sekarang bukan main skip lagi dhuha,kononnya busy
Puasa sunat tinggal,kononnya yang wajib dah berganti.

Betullah.

Kadang2 kita sibuk salahkan Tuhan kononnya dia tak beri kita itu dan ini
Hakikatnya kita sebagai hamba yang sibuk menjauh diri..lupa hidup ni bukan utk duniawi.

Ok jangan lupa check diri,muhasabah2! Diberi ujian pasti ada hikmah :)

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