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Denai.




Denai ini bukan mudah

tidak mudah,payah dan penuh bermasalah
"kau tidak akan mampu jalani seorang diri"
kata hati

Ahhhhhhh,persetankan semua itu.

ini denai yang telah aku pilih
Denai yang bakal penuh dengan jerih perih

peduli apa aku sama teman seperjuangan
konon mahu meneman
kan aku sudah punya Tuhan!

ini denai yang aku pilih,
Denai yang bakal penuh dengan jerih perih

"luka kecil sahaja kau sudah teriak memanggil emak"
"mampu kah kau?"
"bukankah kau takut pada gelapnya malam?"
"tidak kau gentar teriknya siang?"


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh,payah2.
kalau musuh paling ketat diri aku sendiri.

tersadung aku,luka aku siapa mahu ubati,
jatuh aku,sakit aku,siapa mahu temani,
dan pada siapa mahu aku cerita kisah aku hari ini

"kau lupa? Bukan kau kata kau punya Tuhan?"
"oh manusia,pantas sungguh kau lupa apa yang kau ungkapkan"


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